Same day of today of last year, I was rendering the last few days of my previous job because I decided to resign. Like each year, I was looking forward to celebrate Christmas, my birthday and new year. Same day of today of last year, I was so motivated to start fulfilling my childhood dream to be a lawyer. Also, during this time of last year, I was really ready to take on another chapter of my life which was different of what I was taking on at that time.
I resigned from my previous employer. Many questioned my decision. They were insinuating that it must be the job or the boss. Many expressed that I was in a very great company so why I had the courage to let the opportunity slip in my hands. If I told them my answer, they couldn't understand. I decided to resign not because I hated my work, the company nor my workmates. I tendered my resignation stipulating that I would like to proceed to law school at that time. That was it. There was no other reason and I didn't apply to other company.
I was officially disconnected from that company in the middle of December of last year. This allowed me to celebrate Christmas without having at the back of my mind that there were pending errands at work. I celebrated Christmas very spiritually. I sought personal encounter with the My Savior. Also, I surrendered to Him all my plans for next year.
I am a December celebrant. Last year, I celebrated my birthday intimately with my parents. My time with my family especially with my parents was not as lavish as before I studied college. I am just a person from the province trying to find a spot in the city. When I pursued my college education and eventually started my career, I went back home weekly, twice or worst no visit in a month. Thus, when I spent my birthday last year, right then and there, I realized I was missing them so much. Although he is not as strong as before, I missed my father's stare that directed at and reminded me that I would always be his youngest Tata Gamay. I missed my mother and her home cooked dishes. She would always give time to listen to my jokes, stories and everything I blubber. She would always be there when no one would seem to listen to me. And I celebrated my birthday like that. Spending it with my parents and family was very meaningful.
When new year's eve came, I attended the Eucharist. It has been my personal commitment to never miss that because what was included in the New Year's Eve mass is the renewal of baptismal vow. And I would never get tired to profess again and again my faith. As I did that last year, I felt replenished and amplified to face the coming year.
January 1, 2013 came and I was having this new perspective. It was like I was viewing everything at the other end of the spectrum. But there was still the old me in me who was always enthusiastic and driven to see the positive side of everything.
It was that month that me and my mother planned what I should do which should be beneficial for the whole family. Mama suggested that I would try to find a work while waiting for enrollment and I obeyed. I got employed in one of our government agencies. I belonged to this Social Pension for Indigent Senior Citizen. I liked it because its objective was very noble.
As I was working, I embraced all the changes -working environment, people, and job. I thought this was all part of the new endeavor I was ready to tread. This was the time I contemplated a lot. I asked a lot of people of my plan of going back to school. Fortunately, there was this one person. She said, "It is not about what profession you have but what you do with your profession". From that, I was hit on the target.
One day, I woke up and it was June 2013. I didn't enroll and did continue to be employed. Time was very fast and I immersed myself full time with my work. I decided not to enroll because of many reasons. There were many things to weigh. If I pursued education, I knew those reasons would keep on disturbing and could impede my studies eventually
Even if I was employed and did not enroll, I did not blame myself for not pursuing my original plan. Instead, I accepted everything that happened. I busied myself with what were happening at present. I spent more time with the people I love and myself than I was a year prior to this year. I knew now how to balance career and personal life. Almost, every week I went home to my parents. I spent and partied with my friends. At present, I am blogging which so far I am enjoying. Lastly, I constantly sought personal encounter with my Savior. Aside from hearing mass, I started to attend if I could The Feast which is a Catholic Prayer Meeting of the Light of Jesus Family. Yes, I am making time for people, myself and God.
Now that it is December again and I am nearing to my 25th year, all I can say that this year was indeed a turning point in my life. What I realized this year can be summed up into as follows.
1. Did I regret resigning from my previous work? No, I didn't. But I miss the people and moments I spent there.
2. Do I feel frustrated of my failed ambition? No, I don't. But I always believe that there is no failure but only delayed success. I may not be a lawyer but I will be successful.
3. Do I regret making uncalibrated decision? No, I don't. But I have forgiven myself to be able to move on. And I have learned to enjoy the present moment.
4. What is my current disposition? I realize that I can make big decisions about my life. Where I am now is the result of my choices. I can safely say that I am in sweet disposition right now.
This year that is coming to an end is like a cup of coffee. It is a bittersweet experience. When it's empty, I am still open for another cup of it.
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I resigned from my previous employer. Many questioned my decision. They were insinuating that it must be the job or the boss. Many expressed that I was in a very great company so why I had the courage to let the opportunity slip in my hands. If I told them my answer, they couldn't understand. I decided to resign not because I hated my work, the company nor my workmates. I tendered my resignation stipulating that I would like to proceed to law school at that time. That was it. There was no other reason and I didn't apply to other company.
I was officially disconnected from that company in the middle of December of last year. This allowed me to celebrate Christmas without having at the back of my mind that there were pending errands at work. I celebrated Christmas very spiritually. I sought personal encounter with the My Savior. Also, I surrendered to Him all my plans for next year.
I am a December celebrant. Last year, I celebrated my birthday intimately with my parents. My time with my family especially with my parents was not as lavish as before I studied college. I am just a person from the province trying to find a spot in the city. When I pursued my college education and eventually started my career, I went back home weekly, twice or worst no visit in a month. Thus, when I spent my birthday last year, right then and there, I realized I was missing them so much. Although he is not as strong as before, I missed my father's stare that directed at and reminded me that I would always be his youngest Tata Gamay. I missed my mother and her home cooked dishes. She would always give time to listen to my jokes, stories and everything I blubber. She would always be there when no one would seem to listen to me. And I celebrated my birthday like that. Spending it with my parents and family was very meaningful.
When new year's eve came, I attended the Eucharist. It has been my personal commitment to never miss that because what was included in the New Year's Eve mass is the renewal of baptismal vow. And I would never get tired to profess again and again my faith. As I did that last year, I felt replenished and amplified to face the coming year.
January 1, 2013 came and I was having this new perspective. It was like I was viewing everything at the other end of the spectrum. But there was still the old me in me who was always enthusiastic and driven to see the positive side of everything.
It was that month that me and my mother planned what I should do which should be beneficial for the whole family. Mama suggested that I would try to find a work while waiting for enrollment and I obeyed. I got employed in one of our government agencies. I belonged to this Social Pension for Indigent Senior Citizen. I liked it because its objective was very noble.
As I was working, I embraced all the changes -working environment, people, and job. I thought this was all part of the new endeavor I was ready to tread. This was the time I contemplated a lot. I asked a lot of people of my plan of going back to school. Fortunately, there was this one person. She said, "It is not about what profession you have but what you do with your profession". From that, I was hit on the target.
One day, I woke up and it was June 2013. I didn't enroll and did continue to be employed. Time was very fast and I immersed myself full time with my work. I decided not to enroll because of many reasons. There were many things to weigh. If I pursued education, I knew those reasons would keep on disturbing and could impede my studies eventually
Even if I was employed and did not enroll, I did not blame myself for not pursuing my original plan. Instead, I accepted everything that happened. I busied myself with what were happening at present. I spent more time with the people I love and myself than I was a year prior to this year. I knew now how to balance career and personal life. Almost, every week I went home to my parents. I spent and partied with my friends. At present, I am blogging which so far I am enjoying. Lastly, I constantly sought personal encounter with my Savior. Aside from hearing mass, I started to attend if I could The Feast which is a Catholic Prayer Meeting of the Light of Jesus Family. Yes, I am making time for people, myself and God.
Now that it is December again and I am nearing to my 25th year, all I can say that this year was indeed a turning point in my life. What I realized this year can be summed up into as follows.
1. Did I regret resigning from my previous work? No, I didn't. But I miss the people and moments I spent there.
2. Do I feel frustrated of my failed ambition? No, I don't. But I always believe that there is no failure but only delayed success. I may not be a lawyer but I will be successful.
3. Do I regret making uncalibrated decision? No, I don't. But I have forgiven myself to be able to move on. And I have learned to enjoy the present moment.
4. What is my current disposition? I realize that I can make big decisions about my life. Where I am now is the result of my choices. I can safely say that I am in sweet disposition right now.
This year that is coming to an end is like a cup of coffee. It is a bittersweet experience. When it's empty, I am still open for another cup of it.
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| Caramel Latte at Cafe Demitasse F. Torres, Davao City |
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